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You may wonder at the title of my blog. And originally it was a title that was very insignificant (see first post). I have often had the desire to change my blog's name or even to start a new one as the address is also soo do or pseudo. But this last year at bible school I had an assignment on generosity based on two chapters from the Bible (Leviticus 25 and Deuteronomy 15) that changed my perspective a bit. In Deuteronomy God tells the Israelites "...you shall not harden your hearts, nor close your hand from your brother, but you shall freely open your hand to him and generously lend him sufficient for his need, whatever he lacks." (Deut. 15:7-8).
Soo do means open hand in Korean, or at least that is what I have been told in my karate classes, and after remembering this and working through my generosity assignment, I wondered to myself: Am I a soo do (open hand) christian or a psuedo christian? This question continues to challenge me. I often keep my time, money, and encouragements to myself and don't give generously. But God calls us to give all we have, for our security lies not in our weatlh, or health, or time, or place, but ultimately in Him.
This blog is for me to share my thoughts and my days, things I love and places I go, my struggles and His victories, and ultimately His work in and through me will hopefully make me a soo do christian.

Thursday, February 15, 2007

Senior lost

Every year my high school, Skyview, loses a senior. My freshman year a kid died in a fire, my sophmore year it was the dean's niece, my junior year Andrew Williams drowned, but this is my senoir year and this death hit the hardest.
All year I have been wondering who it would be. "Who's next?" I would think "it could be me or Sara (my best friend), or anyone" both Sara and I realized this and talked about it. I knew it would happen and it did.

When I got to my first class today Mr. M told us that our conselor, Mr. W, was here to talk to us about Jennifer. And I knew that Jennifer was gone.

She went up into the mountains with her friend and boyfriend and got stuck in the snow, now she is gone. I didn't know her that well and I only talked to her a few times in my life but I can see her in my mind sitting across the room from me in government class, she was quiet and funny and she had a smile that turned up on one side. I knew her early on in highschool and when I saw her again she had a funky haircut like the one in the picture above. A friend of her's said she wanted to go into counseling and all i could think was "she would have been good at it.

Though I didn't know her well I cried when I found out she had passed away and I weep for all the students who have died in the past. Our counselor said she used to make jokes about National Free Balloon Day and I know whenever I see a bright-colored balloon in the future I will remember Jennifer Burkey and the hole her death left in our Senoir Class of 2007

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